Cappucino Kids, Mongrels, Bannana’s, Half-castes, Mixers whatever you wanna call it, growing up the daughter of an Indonesian and Australian comes with its labels.. the fun of it is trying to work out what they all mean.. so i guess Mongrel, Mixer and Half caste are self-explanatory. But Bannana? Upon further analysis it seems a bannana is actually a full blooded Asian who has grown up in a western country – hence yellow on the outside and white on the inside. Cappucino kid is a mix of half milk half coffee – this one has to be my favourite because it just rolls of the tongue..
This leads me onto the whole half-breed category of people, obviously im only talking from my own experiences and in no way aim to make any generalisations, but its hard to work out where one fits in. I’ve often found myself in the midst of heated debates about Indonesia and Australia and find myself experiencing an inner turmoil about who to defend. Whichever one i choose i always feel inately guilty about the decision. So what to do in such a dillemma? I find sitting there quietly gives a sign of indifference or compliancy yet when you say your bit your viewed as defensive or as having an inherent bias.
The question of nationality always confuses me also, for some reasons the question “Whats your nationality?” or the even cooler version “Whats your natio?” have become common introductory questions. I tend to follow citizenship so I say Australian but then the question is followed up with “Nah but whats like you know your natio, like your background and stuff” (imagine that being asked in a bogan accent) in which case the answer would still be Australian because that is my background, yet what they’re really asking is from where my parents are from right? or why is it that i have darker skin, slantier eyes, and black hair? To which i go into a detailed explanation of ‘my background’ – i find the whole thing really odd. If i were completely white, rounded eyed, with brown – blonde hair i dont think anyone would ask me what my nationality was. The question of background is always a bit odd too because everyone has a background if i was to get into real detail about it all i could go into western europian ancestors and probably trace myself back to somewhere in Ireland aswell… anyway thats the end of my rant 🙂